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Journal Entry: Tue Oct 29, 2013, 9:56 PM
The Unchosen by 3feathers

unrequitedyou make my words
gather at the hollows
of my throat
until i choke on them.
my fingers ache to
hold you--
but my eyes ache to
you're nothing but heart break
wrapped in a bow
of something beautiful,
like the dust of grace from
fallen angels.
i drink a little faster and
cry a little harder
because the way whiskey and tears
mingle on my lips
tastes suspiciously of love.
   I mean nothing to you by LinaDomina   excuses for why I'm shakingwe live in a world of apologies.
I made a mistake a year back,
choosing my addiction to oxygen
over less demanding things.
I’m sick of trembling for problems
that aren’t mine and I’m sick of trying
to romanticize black holes and
the indiscriminate nature of lithium and
I’m sick of waking up every morning
feeling sick. and truly, I’m sorry
but I’m not ready to accept my role
in the making of myself. I’m not ready
to lament for those with a smaller
pain tolerance, and for my dislike
of anything that requires commitment.
I’m sorry I miss you and I’m sorry
I won’t admit that out loud.
how scary is it to be something
so unalterably heavy, to be diagnosed
as your own worst enemy, but god,
you’re so fucking beautiful,
and not in the stereotypical boy
meets girl meets fairytale way, but
the kind that makes my heart
bleed a million miles quicker.
I just wanted to cry on all
your scars and wash them clean.
when things are bad for

Shedding the old skin by Lepa-Dinis   snakeI will slough off
all my feelings for you
like a second skin
for somebody else
to slip into

Automatonone day i asked him to rewire me and he did
and there was a key that opened up my ribcage like some safe
like it’s worth protecting what’s in there
and he cut open nerve centers and peered inside with his microscope eyes and
he fixed me, replaced lines of nerve cells with copper wiring and didn’t realize nerves are made in the synapses, in the spaces between the cells
he rewired me and left no spaces in my head and
i didn’t feel real anymore
   Automaton by Almacan

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I 'm in to deep by Garden-Of-BlackRoses
   [ ]I am not crying because I lost him,
I am crying because I lost me.
I have given up,
tears dripping like burning wax down my cheeks
and into the candle.
It's dark, now:
I've said goodbye.
[I cannot hold on any longer.]

escape by poivre

   to map day I will tell my daughter to touch herself
before she ever lets a man do it for her, to learn
her body-secrets and the shape of pleasure. I will
tell her that San Francisco always keeps your heart.
that her skin is a blank canvas, that hair grows,
the value of the right kind of disrespect. that the older
we get, the more we need the people who knew us
when we were young. I will tell my daughter
to give away the secrets that keep her up at night,
and that there is never a wrong time to love someone,
but sometimes a wrong way. I will teach my daughter
to travel without makeup; that sometimes forever means
morning and sometimes the ends of the earth means
Africa or one city over. that it's okay to be afraid of
I will tell my daughter that life is teetering across
the bridge, that the panic building in her chest is okay;
that good love is waiting on the other side; that better
love is holding her hand; and that the best love is her own
voice in the back of her mind, saying "

Tempest by melannc

a self-portraitI am chaos theory,
that strange amalgamation of
order and anarchy,
fearsome and gorgeous
as a star, a galaxy.
look at my arms,
spiralling, stunning
as a Lorenz attractor,
attracting stardust to my centre,
my black hole,
my churning void of gravity.
are you brave enough to look
straight at me?
are you wise enough to see
the beauty in this fury,
deterministic matter
devolving into a haze of
the arbitrary?
I am a fusion of dynamical systems,
a point on a geometrical
manifold, and yet I am
so much more.
observing me does not collapse me.
I am infinite (im)possibility.

Don't leave me by flankers

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Journal Entry: Fri Nov 9, 2012, 9:01 PM
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Phenominal Photomanipulations

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 10, 2012, 3:22 PM
Eternal Flame by igreeny Dream Believer by ForestGirl  Legend by Phatpuppyart-Studios Alexiel and Luzifer by eerilyfair

Mature Content

Forty Winters by patriciabrennan
Daybreak by patriciabrennan Feeding time by megan7 Stolen Moments by DesignbyKatt The Shell Maiden by Foxfires Water Spider by B-O-K-E Water Maiden Magic by pranile To turnament by Vinyariel Tender hands by ElenaDudina Riverside by gemlovesyou Break Away by Richirajd Branwen by RottenRagamuffin Autumn Portal by Whendell :thumb202516717: Free by Selunia AS OLD AS YOUR FEARS... by chryssalis As The Crow Flies by simoneheld Nos Morituri by erlendmork Immortal Souls by pranile :thumb287327622: Lucid dreams by Dream-traveler My life by aninur Secret moment by aninur Waiting in Neverland by AlexandriaDior Rises to the Surface by Phatpuppyart-Studios

Ridiculously Awesome

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 23, 2012, 9:00 PM
So I have been a lazy bum this weekend. So many plans, so little done... I think I need to work on time management, even on my weekends... :dead:

But since I have spent waaay too much time on dA this weekend, allow me to share with you some ridiculously awesome art! =D

Feeding time by megan7 Stolen Moments by DesignbyKatt

Mature Content

TheQuiet by melannc
Water Spider by B-O-K-E Has the fortuitous wave by Sesca Everything dies by artofinvi :thumb324721100: Nos Morituri by erlendmork :thumb323094229: :thumb143834276: Get Burn to Ashes by telthona Elesh by IgorKieryluk Magdalena by 88grzes Magic Grass by daRoz

Update and Features

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 16, 2012, 9:55 PM
Getting settled in and finally back into writing. :heart: I need to get back to art again too, I have the itch and I think I owe quite a few pieces now, yes? Oh yes... :faint: But I have no complaints - so far everyone has requested something I shall enjoy drawing/photomanipping! =D

Many thanks to everyone for their patience! :forgiveme:

For now, some features, and a song that fits both how I feel tonight and suits Kaiden and Fenris well too. :heart:…

Reunion by Danmaro Aragorn by Esteljf

Mature Content

The Healing by 3feathers
Breathe by Saimain All the others, gone by Gold-Seven BL -  Not alone by ThoseWeirdThings lassitude. by alexzappa Sparrow. by rockgem

  • Mood: Joy
Congratulations to Danmaro and Owlet-in-chest for tying for first place in the poll! :clap: :clap: :clap:

Thus there are THREE grand prize winners, featured here with some of my favorite pieces by the artists:

DA2:Kaiden Hawke and Fenris by Owlet-in-chest
I love the feeling depicted here, the love between them, really beautiful! :heart:
ME3_Jack by Owlet-in-chestSerenity by Owlet-in-chestDifficult choice... by Owlet-in-chest

Lyrium and Ashes by Danmaro
Wow, ten entries in one! Very creative and I especially love the picture of Kaiden enjoying the snow! :aww:

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Love me by Danmaro

Mature Content

Interruption by Danmaro
Marc by Danmaro

Beautiful work and perfectly captures my vision of this scene! :love:

Two other pieces I think deserve special mention and shall receive a prize upgrade:

Kaiden Hawke, Lyrium and Ashes - Destiny by Savvid
If I were offering a prize for best capture of Kaiden's features, it would go to you, Savvid! Thank you for the wonderful entry!

Lyrium and Ashes by olivegbg
I love the moody lighting and olivegbg's portrayal of this scene as it really captures the feel I was going for!

Thank you to everyone for the wonderful entries!!! :blowkiss:

Lyrium and Ashes Final Entries

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 20, 2012, 6:56 PM

EDIT: I want to thank everyone who entered! I am pleased by the variety of themes and styles and the thought and time that went into creating your entries! :heart: It was a difficult choice because a few pieces stood out to me for different reasons. I will say more on this and there shall be additional prizes, but I do not want to prejudice the voting, so for now I shall just announce the first grand prize winner:

by elfkin

I love this piece - the portrayal of Kaiden and Varric and illustrating a scene in the Fade from chapter 7! :heart:

VOTING: I am now starting the poll so vote for the second grand prize winner! :la:
All winners shall be announced next Sunday. :)

And so my contest comes to a close...
:excited: So many wonderful entries - how shall I choose??? :gallery:

Alone I Break by RiHouston Kaiden Hawke, Lyrium and Ashes - Destiny by Savvid This is the only way.. by athena-starbuck :thumb318601914: [DA2] Kiss the Mage by koogee4 Lyrium and Ashes by Danmaro -.Lyrium and Ashes.-Little slave by Griever4Leon DA2:Kaiden Hawke and Fenris by Owlet-in-chest Lyrium and Ashes by olivegbg -.Lyrium and Ashes Snow day.- by Griever4Leon Kaiden Hawke by Crimsonberry

Yes, I FINALLY have Internet again now! Took longer than I was promised but... ah well, have it now... :shifty:

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  • Mood: Joy
  • Drinking: peppermint tea

I'll be back...

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 3, 2012, 8:52 AM
UPDATE: I have arrived safely in San Antonio, really like the apartment, and am getting settled in and prepared for orientation and then classes in two weeks. :la:
I will have good Internet service, but not until Friday (I am told that is fast but it's longer than I'd wished to wait! :eager: ) Right now accessing from the library.

Packing the truck today and leaving tomorrow! :omfg:

I will be back online sometime next week, hopefully earlier rather than later. I need my dA fix, lol. ;P

I have printed out my Lyrium and Ashes chapter WIPs and shall be working on them on the road (don't worry, I'm not the driver, lol) and you can expect TWO new chapters when I return! :la:

There's little more than two weeks to enter my contest: Lyrium and Ashes CONTEST by ErinM31
Still plenty of time to create an entry! There are eleven prizes and so far eight nine entries! So there is a more than good chance of winning at least a drawing and 120 points! ;)

Entries so far: :dance:

This is the only way.. by athena-starbuck :thumb318601914: [DA2] Kiss the Mage by koogee4 Lyrium and Ashes by Danmaro -.Lyrium and Ashes.-Little slave by Griever4Leon DA2:Kaiden Hawke and Fenris by Owlet-in-chest Lyrium and Ashes by olivegbg -.Lyrium and Ashes Snow day.- by Griever4Leon Kaiden Hawke by Crimsonberry

  • Mood: Distracted
  • Listening to: the voices in my head...
  • Reading: your mind...
  • Eating: breakfast
  • Drinking: mocha

Dark Feature

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 28, 2012, 6:44 PM
My thanks to everyone who has voted on my polls. :aww: Here are a few updates:

:bulletpurple: The deadline for my Lyrium and Ashes contest remains August 20th. The voting was nearly split, and I realized that with the deadline posted everywhere, trying to change it would just create confusion. Can't make the deadline? Never fear, since I would like artwork for the rest of the story that has not yet been written, I shall hold a second contest once I finally finish it in a few years.

:bulletpurple: I shall put together more photomanipulation walkthroughs as I create future works. The focus of the next shall be blending elements together. There are many artists who do this better than I do, but maybe I know a few basic tricks that shall be helpful. :)

:bulletpurple: Hopefully, problems alluded to in previous journal entry are resolved. :please: I shall be moving across country next week and therefore offline from August 3rd through 7th.

And now without further delay, a dark feature because it suits my mood today.

THE CURSE OF BEING DIFFERENT by chryssalis Struggle 1 by eleventen :thumb287327622: Purgatory by Dream-traveler She calls the Crows by enmi The monotone panic by Ephynephryn never-ending list by Sythgara Chains - RVH by kittrose BigCity - paint by MikaZZZ End of life by julie-rc Immortal Souls by pranile Final Hour by michellemonique THE THINGS I DIDN'T DARE... by chryssalis br.o.ken by Dream-traveler Riordan -Bad day, bad life by olivegbg BP Dependence1 by yd84

Mature Content

BLACK BIRDS IN MY EYES... by chryssalis
Fallen by ChristinZakh It still hurts by Allantiee Lucid dreams by Dream-traveler

What happened to my break?! The summer semester starts tomorrow! :omfg:
I never accomplish as much as I hope... A breakdown of where I'm at:

Writing - coming along well and a revision of chapter 1 is also in the works. The tenth time I rewrite this story it shall be perfect I swear! ;P

Photomanipping - overall getting better, although I have not been able to create another piece on the level of Your Light I have some ideas...

Drawing/Painting - spend many hours on a piece and then realize that it looks worse than before I began :frustrated:
Exception: I enjoy painting clouds. My apologies if you are waiting for artwork from me that is of something other than sky! ;) I am not satisfied with how I paint people and am working this out...

Btw, if for some reason you are interesting in seeing my works-in-progress, I upload these to Scraps and then add them to my WIPs folder, so you can check there or watch my Scrap uploads if you'd like. :)

Here are some lovely photos I've found recently. Huh, just realized that they're mostly guys and kittens. Well, they're my favs, lol. ;P

Mature Content

Patrick 2 by FrodoPrime
Dirty Little Hipster by vishstudio

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MF... 11 by Albert-Smirnov
Model-Tom-B-0011 by TeeJott Model 6 by Dan-Lee90
day eight by mary-by This is the Life by AngelaLouwe Hello Zara by lintu47odd-eyed ragdoll kitten by venomxbaby
Will you walk into my parlor? by b-and-icoot red squirrel by cloe-patra Baby snowie by woxys
:wave: Hello all and welcome new watchers! :iconbummy1::iconbummy2::iconbummy3:

:bulletpurple: Expect to see lots of amazing work in your inbox! That's right, I like to do features! ;P

:bulletpurple: Fellow photomanipulators: This week is Photomanip Week! :la: Check out the happenings at: :iconthe-sacred-space:

:bulletpurple: Also there is still a little over a week yet to create your entries for The Dark Riders competition (details here ->
I have a second entry in progress myself! :w00t:

:bulletpurple: In case you missed my last journal entry, I am holding a contest to do art for my fanfic, Lyrium and Ashes (details here ->

After you draw my characters... :iconwhistlingplz:

:bulletpurple: Check out this contest at :iconseductiveinkwell: -> SIW Best Portrayal Contest - Updated prizesContest for the best portrayal of characters introduced in SIW
We are pleased to announce a contest for the best portrayal of characters introduced in SIW. If you are skilled in capturing male beauty in your paintings/ drawings, we will be delighted to see your contest entry.
:heart: Many thanks to our members and wonderful affiliates for the prizes donated for this contest :heart:
:bulletyellow: 3 month premium membership or point equivalent from SeductiveInkWell
:bulletyellow: 3 month premium membership or point equivalent from Solangetatsu
:bulletyellow: 100 points from SanguinaryDesires
:bulletyellow: 100 points from QaF-LibertyAve
:bulletyellow: 100 points from BloodrainFireDawn
:bulletyellow: 10 points and a constructive critique from MewMewMizuno
:bulletyellow: 3 month feature of the winning artwork in a feature journal in SeductiveInkWell
:bulletyellow: Feature in personal journals of RageBetweenTheSheets, :de

:bulletpurple: And now for some fantastic art from around dA! :la:

Eternal Flame by igreeny Free by Selunia Break Away by Richirajd
I Try To Reach This Unknown Land by DpressedSoul The world is non-existent by baroquedoll Camouflage by thomasbossert
Water Maiden Magic by pranile Forgotten Garden by JannaFairyArt Dandelion by fruitpunch1
The flower of the rivers by SARYTH

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BLACK BIRDS IN MY EYES... by chryssalis
Hunter Prey by nitchwarmer
fragile companion by razimo Boat in a storm by MartaNael Fairwell my Friend by Busterfish
.: Dandelion Dreams :. by Frank-Beer New life by VoidIndex

Contests and Features!

Journal Entry: Thu May 17, 2012, 8:18 PM
Check out the Dark Riders Challenge hosted by :icondarkart-challenges: :thumb302430213:

Lots of fun and great prizes! :dance:

The Challenge stock is excellent, and here is some additional stock that you may find helpful:

STOCK Foggy forest by nomuh Ghostly Path Premade 1 by i-am-JENius Premade Background  1177 by AshenSorrow A morning in Lothlorien 30 by Dragoroth-stock
Tired by OnlyYouCan Black Horse Stock 001 by xKissOfCreation Nico001 by klau14 friesian 1 by venomxbaby Conjal's Witch King + Gandalf by FantasyStock Nazgul Pack by lindowyn-stock Witch-king of Angmar by Xaelle39 Come to the Witch King by Dragoroth-stock Lord of the Rings by cooliojulio

And some of my favorite Tolkien-inspired art:

Feanor by Venlian Finrod by jankolas The Last Kiss by Aeternum-Art Arwen and Aragorn by imorawetz
Hope For Middle Earth by Mavrosh Beren and Luthien by Heylenne Aragorn by Esteljf
LOTR: watching by Unita-N PircH by MRBee30 :thumb198289128: nazgul by VBagi
Nargothrond. Turin and Finduilas by EKukanova :thumb244751320: The death of Glaurung by EKukanova
and one of my own: What Has Been Lost by ErinM31

My own contest shall be announced TUESDAY, MAY 22ND! :iconlawooplz:
Stay tuned... =D

The Dark Riders Challenge STAMP by ErinM31 Lyrium and Ashes STAMP by ErinM31

Happenings around Deviant Art

Journal Entry: Sat May 5, 2012, 4:00 PM
Finally done with the semester! :la: And that means... okay I won't say it! Less talk, more uploads! ;)

Here are some challenges I thought you might be interested in:

Want to improve your artwork in a black-and-white medium? Check out this challenge held by :iconblackandwhiteclub:
Improve Yourself Round 2 - Call for Participantsblackandwhiteclub is taking participants for the second round of the Improve Yourself Challenge!
Enter the challenge until 1st of November! Submit you best work! You have 6 months to learn new techniques, find your own art style or improve it. Amaze us by 1st of May with a better art-work than your best!
You can submit to the challenge every month or you can submit at the beginning and at the end!
This is an extended challenge for members of blackandwhiteclub who wish to improve their artwork in a goal-oriented way.  It is open to all black and white media, all styles, and all skill levels.  Participants will submit artwork for the challenge periodically, and at the conclusion of the challenge will be featured in a news article.
The challenge officially begins on June 1, 2011 and officially concludes on December 31, 2012.
Joining the Challenge
Members have until June 1 to join the challenge.  New and old members of :devblackandwhite

Do you want to draw another deviant's OC and get points and other cool prizes for it? Of course you do! Check out this contest:
Contest #1: 'dAmn FanArt'
Draw Your Favorite deviant's OC!

Begins May 1, 2012; Ends precisely May 31, 2012 - 12:00 pm Central
Each successfully entered deviation will be awarded 10 points.
Due to some unforeseen health issues the final 'winners list' may be posted late. (No later than June 5th.)

To win:

You MUST have a reference picture of the OC in your artist's comments.You MUST have a link to this contest and proper permissions.You MUST have this contest blog in your favorites.
Hey guys and gals~! Well, May is finally here and do you know what that means? ...It is legitimate contest time! Just like the giveaway (which ended yesterday; Congrats to le winners), this contest will span an entire month in which you can put in your entries. 

The Rules Are As Follows:

Photomanipulators, check out these helpful tips and walkthroughs:
Photomanipulation walkthroughStep 1: Idea (message, composition)
You decided that you want to make a photomanipulation. But what to make? There are so many photomanipulations already out there and mostly with the same theme. So you decide you don't just want to stick a pretty girl onto a beautiful background. No you want to be original and have your manipulation portray a message everyone can relate to.
Think of things that are important to you, that lay close to your heart. They can be emotions (love, hate, sadness, anger) or experiences, hobbies (art, sports etc), things you are struggling with. Or they can be global themes like (beauty, money, economy, eating disorders, war, relationships etc.)
Of course if you choose to portray something as love there are many ways to do so. Do you want it to be a surreal depiction of love, or dark, fantasy, sci-fi, conceptual, humourous... your choice will of course decide the whole 'feel' of the image.
So choose wisely as they say.
Now that you have your theme you nee

My own contest shall be posted this month. Right now I am thinking two grand prizes of a full commission, 3 month premium membership, and 200 points; and nine runner-up prizes of a single character drawing and 100 points.
(if I get that many entries!) :blush:

Does that sound good? All thoughts/suggestions more than welcome! :)

  • Mood: Artistic
  • Drinking: coffee

More Awesomeness

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 21, 2012, 3:26 PM
So many amazing works, so I must do another feature of awesomeness! :la:

First, two updates: To those of you who saw my briefly posted journal entry, things worked out and I am grateful for the help of some really awesome people! :love:
I know I said I'd have the next chapter of my fanfic up soon, but by now you probably know that "soon" means "soon relative to the life age of the Earth." :blush: It is coming along, but one of the scenes has proved more difficult than I anticipated. It shall be posted soon, I hope, no really!
I will cling to my delusions. :ignore:

And now for more fantastic artwork I've found recently! Enjoy! :heart: :heart: :heart:

spell of fire by LadyOwl :thumb297492861: Daybreak by patriciabrennan I'm fine, you fool by Kyoux
Distant Musings by PinkParasol Arwen and Aragorn by imorawetz Serenity Cousland by DragonReine
Da - Fenris by Smilika 13 - Death - Phoenix by puimun Vertical Aspirations by puimun
:thumb296280232: :thumb296422673:


  • Mood: Artistic
  • Drinking: coffee

Feature time!

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 11, 2012, 8:39 PM
I wanted to share with you some of the lovely artwork I've come across recently. :)

.b.r.e.a.t.h.e. by Zephyri Wilderlord by Saimain COMMISSION - Kraun by muju
Lucid dreams by Dream-travelerThe Last Kiss by Aeternum-Art Legend by Phatpuppyart-Studios
Mage by phoenixlu Feanor by Venlian GAIA: winterqueen by avodkabottle
Lose -die, Win -die! by olivegbg loneliness by Djulbars Merune by HeroDees

Journal skin by Snezhinka

  • Mood: Artistic
  • Drinking: water, water, water

Ten Unnecessary Things About Kaiden Hawke

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 20, 2012, 12:05 PM

Taking the meme and questions from elfkin - be sure to check out her comic about Guy Hawke and Fenris!

"10 Unnecessary Things About My OC That You Really Didn't Need to Know" Meme

1. How old were you when you lost your virginity?
"I had just turned fifteen."

2. Where were you when it occurred?
Kaiden's mouth quirks into a crooked smile. "I was on the bottom."

3. What is your favorite secret indulgence?  (Food, clothing, spirits, anything counts)
Kaiden laughs. "I fear none of my indulgences are secret. Men, women, and pastries."

4. your worst moment.
The smile leaves Kaiden's face. "Seeing that ogre... losing my little sister. It should have been me who acted first and drew that ogre's attention."

5. The first time you really hated someone else (if you ever have)
"Darkspawn don't count, do they? Well, I always thought I hated the templars but... as much as I hate what they do, I know that not all of them are bad people so... The first time I really hated someone, was Danarius. And every time Fenris has that look, every time he tells me something else that... Maker, it almost scares me what I want to do to that bastard."

6. the sport your character is worst/best at.
"I enjoy sport and hold my own I think, but Carver was always the best at that. Although, come to think of it, I'm no good at arm-wrestling."

7. The ally you have that bothers you almost as nuts as your enemy does.
"Is Sebastian an ally? I really don't know. He was friendly enough when he needed my help but... well, imagine combining a spoiled prince with a holier-than-thou priest and there you have Sebastian. He's too quick to pass judgement on things he knows nothing about."

8. Your favorite place to kick someone's arse.
"Far outside of town, where I don't have to worry about onlookers and templars."

9. the funiest thing one of your allies has ever told you
"Have you met my friends?" Kaiden laughs. "How could I pick one thing?"

10. Who is your best friend?
Kaiden thinks for a moment. "Anders and Varric. Whether it's a fight or a quiet night at the Hanged Man it's... comfortable, like we understand one another without having to say anything, you know?" Kaiden smiles. "Not that Varric would ever not say anything."

Not Strong Enough by ErinM31 :thumb267679796:
Kaiden Hawke by Danmaro DAII - Commission by ErinM31 by Nazgullow Kaiden Hawke by yuhime :thumb273440955:

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