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Journal Entry: Tue Nov 25, 2014, 6:57 AM
Thank you all for the beautiful birthday wishes! :blowkiss: My apologies to my watchers for my long absence. :forgiveme:

Many of you know I struggle with anxiety and depression. The long and short of it is that the past two years have been difficult and stressful for many reasons... This year, to that was added an incompetent nurse-practitioner who, over the course of the past year, caused me to have altered or even missed doses of my medication. I knew that it was making me feel shitty and have since learned that it was also dangerous and although rare, people have died from abruptly stopping the medication that I am on. I should have sought help sooner, but that seemed like just one more stressful overwhelming unknown... I eventually did, but not before I fell apart completely.

It has taken a damned long time and I still have a long way to go... But I am seeing competent people now and figuring some things out... I am putting myself back together and art and writing are an essential part of that which I have greatly missed. I am working my way back...

I have missed you all. :iconflyingheartsplz:

OC Feature Meme

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 31, 2014, 8:09 PM


 RULES (read before entering!)

1. For the first 10 people who comment on this journal, I will feature one of their characters and comment my choice. (I will go to your gallery and pick one character, you don't need to tell me which one)
2. If you comment, please do the same in your journal, and put me in the first feature slot. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone!

1. :iconyuhime: and because she has a lovely picture of them both I don't have to choose just one -- her lovely Marika Cousland and the dashing Templar Evarist Barandt :love:
September evening by yuhime

2. :icontheloneinquisitor: Her lovely OC, Liv, has a romance with Duncan in her story "Of Love and Death"
Liv and Duncan love by TheLoneInquisitor

skin made by :iconyuhime:

New Year 2014 Updates

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 5, 2014, 2:41 PM

I wish you all a Happy New Year and hope that your year is off to a good start! :)
I apologize for my absence and lack of activity last year! It was a difficult year for me and I sacrificed some things that I should not have...
But now I'm back... from outer space... :boogie:

I usually do not make New Years Resolutions, but this year I have, and I thought I would share those here, also letting you know what you may expect to see from me on dA in the upcoming months:

    A)  I want to challenge myself and improve my writing. To this end, I will be doing every prompt from ScreamPrompts this year. I may participate in additional prompts and challenges if I have time and inclination, but these shall be mandatory.
    B) Finish Lyrium and Ashes before Dragon Age Inquisition is released this fall. I am very grateful to my readers for their feedback and support and I am sorry for the long delays. I did work on the story last year, mostly revisions and scenes that I ended up deleting... Still there are scenes that don't seem quite right, but eventually one must say "good enough" and move on...
    C) This month, I am also writing a piece for a collaborative project with the wonderful talented olivegbg for the The-Bards-College contest. Less than three weeks until the deadline! :eager:

From the communityrelations journal entry by BeccaJS

Bullet; Blue Is there something new you would like to try this year with your writing?
Yes, with the prompts, I shall try writing different kinds of things, different styles, subjects, POV, etc.

Bullet; Blue Is there a piece of work you aim to rewrite and improve?
Lyrium and Ashes, my Dragon Age 2 fan fiction

Bullet; Blue Are you planning to submit your work anywhere for publishing? Where?
Not yet, unless you count my research and literature review writing, in which case, hopefully PLoS Biology or Aging Cell.

Bullet; Blue Are you planning to enter any contests or participate in any challenges? Where and When?
Yes! I shall write an entry for each ScreamPrompts. I would also like to participate in the writing tournament held by Writers--club

Bullet; Blue What would you like out of your writing in 2014? (I.E. A DD, Published in a Zine etc)
Mostly, I want to be a better all-around writer and will be glad to have some finished (fiction) work. A DD would be awesome... I would be thrilled to write something that inspires that recognition, but I don't know if that is realistic to have as a goal. I can only commit to writing regularly and always strive to write better.

Bullet; Blue Is there any type of fellow writer you would like to meet on dA to follow/talk to this year? (i.e. Horror writers etc)
I am always happy to meet and talk with fellow writers and exchange critiques! My favorite genres are fantasy, science fiction, and romance -- or some combination thereof ;) -- but I enjoy a variety of work.

Bullet; Blue What Books are you going to read?
A Wise Man's Fear by Patrick J. Rothfuss (I can't believe I still haven't read the sequel to one of my favorite books EVER :omfg: )
The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman
The Shattered Gates: The Rifter Book One by Ginn Hale
Life Beyond Earth: The Search for Habitable World in the Universe by Dr Athena Coustenis and Dr Thérèse Encrenaz

2) ART
I will do more photomanipulations, but my focus shall be on my drawing and painting, both traditional and digital. There are some techniques that I want to explore. Plus, there are some works that yet I owe some wonderful and patient people. :ashamed:

I stopped taking care of myself at some point last year. I have been tired and unwell a lot. I need to get more regular sleep and exercise and a diet should not consist of caffeine, sugar, caffeine, and the medicine cabinet. :pills:

I am also determined to do a better job of keeping in touch with people this year. I am lucky to have some wonderful friends. :iconflyingheartsplz: Finally, I plan to be involved on dA again. I have always enjoyed it, like to exchange critiques, and have plans for my Dragon-Age group. :)

  • Mood: Zeal
  • Drinking: peppermint tea

Dramatic Shadows

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 28, 2013, 12:00 PM
I am pleased to share with you the winners of the Dramatic Shadows contest held by PhotoManipulatorsx3! (

1st Place

Surface Light by AbbeyMarie

more from the gallery of AbbeyMarie
Gilded Web by AbbeyMarie   War Pestilence Death by AbbeyMarie   Eternity by AbbeyMarie

2nd Place

I See The Moon, I See Hope by DarkDevil16

more from the gallery of DarkDevil16
The World Of Her Dreams by DarkDevil16   Blooming in Red by DarkDevil16   The Angel of the Golden Wings by DarkDevil16

3rd Place

The Hound of the Baskervilles by TonyGCampagna

more from the gallery of TonyGCampagna
Witch and her familiar by TonyGCampagna   Eat at Orion's by TonyGCampagna   For the Gods of Mars by TonyGCampagna

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Photo and Lit Feature

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 29, 2013, 9:56 PM
The Unchosen by 3feathers

unrequitedyou make my words
gather at the hollows
of my throat
until i choke on them.
my fingers ache to
hold you--
but my eyes ache to
you're nothing but heart break
wrapped in a bow
of something beautiful,
like the dust of grace from
fallen angels.
i drink a little faster and
cry a little harder
because the way whiskey and tears
mingle on my lips
tastes suspiciously of love.
   I mean nothing to you by LinaDomina   excuses for why I'm shakingwe live in a world of apologies.
I made a mistake a year back,
choosing my addiction to oxygen
over less demanding things.
I’m sick of trembling for problems
that aren’t mine and I’m sick of trying
to romanticize black holes and
the indiscriminate nature of lithium and
I’m sick of waking up every morning
feeling sick. and truly, I’m sorry
but I’m not ready to accept my role
in the making of myself. I’m not ready
to lament for those with a smaller
pain tolerance, and for my dislike
of anything that requires commitment.
I’m sorry I miss you and I’m sorry
I won’t admit that out loud.
how scary is it to be something
so unalterably heavy, to be diagnosed
as your own worst enemy, but god,
you’re so fucking beautiful,
and not in the stereotypical boy
meets girl meets fairytale way, but
the kind that makes my heart
bleed a million miles quicker.
I just wanted to cry on all
your scars and wash them clean.
when things are bad for

Shedding the old skin by Lepa-Dinis   snakeI will slough off
all my feelings for you
like a second skin
for somebody else
to slip into

Automatonone day i asked him to rewire me and he did
and there was a key that opened up my ribcage like some safe
like it’s worth protecting what’s in there
and he cut open nerve centers and peered inside with his microscope eyes and
he fixed me, replaced lines of nerve cells with copper wiring and didn’t realize nerves are made in the synapses, in the spaces between the cells
he rewired me and left no spaces in my head and
i didn’t feel real anymore
   Automaton by Almacan

I 'm in to deep by Garden-Of-BlackRoses   [ ]I am not crying because I lost him,
I am crying because I lost me.
I have given up,
tears dripping like burning wax down my cheeks
and into the candle.
It's dark, now:
I've said goodbye.
[I cannot hold on any longer.]

escape by poivre

   to map day I will tell my daughter to touch herself
before she ever lets a man do it for her, to learn
her body-secrets and the shape of pleasure. I will
tell her that San Francisco always keeps your heart.
that her skin is a blank canvas, that hair grows,
the value of the right kind of disrespect. that the older
we get, the more we need the people who knew us
when we were young. I will tell my daughter
to give away the secrets that keep her up at night,
and that there is never a wrong time to love someone,
but sometimes a wrong way. I will teach my daughter
to travel without makeup; that sometimes forever means
morning and sometimes the ends of the earth means
Africa or one city over. that it's okay to be afraid of
I will tell my daughter that life is teetering across
the bridge, that the panic building in her chest is okay;
that good love is waiting on the other side; that better
love is holding her hand; and that the best love is her own
voice in the back of her mind, saying "

Tempest by melannc

a self-portraitI am chaos theory,
that strange amalgamation of
order and anarchy,
fearsome and gorgeous
as a star, a galaxy.
look at my arms,
spiralling, stunning
as a Lorenz attractor,
attracting stardust to my centre,
my black hole,
my churning void of gravity.
are you brave enough to look
straight at me?
are you wise enough to see
the beauty in this fury,
deterministic matter
devolving into a haze of
the arbitrary?
I am a fusion of dynamical systems,
a point on a geometrical
manifold, and yet I am
so much more.
observing me does not collapse me.
I am infinite (im)possibility.

Don't leave me by flankers

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Journal Entry: Mon Oct 21, 2013, 8:52 PM
This has been a difficult year.
Thank you all for sticking around.
New chapters are in progress,
my apologies for the wait being so long.
There shall be more artwork too,
as soon as I fix or replace my desktop.
I can no longer wait "until I have time."
In the mean time, enjoy some wonderful fantasy artwork
because reality too often disappoints.

Darkling by wyldraven   The Screaming Sea by nina-Y

Gandalf the Black by Benco42

       Sauron The Fair by Valerhon

  • Listening to: Amy Lee
  • Eating: medicine
  • Drinking: caffeine, caffeine, caffeine

Still Alive

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 9, 2013, 9:06 PM
I apologize for the lack of updates and slow replies! In the last months I have not had any time for art or writing... sometimes not even sleep. I hope to again in the next month or so, but right now, my work requires all my time and energy.

Thank you all for your support and for your interest in my work! There will be more pictures and chapters of Lyrium and Ashes in the coming months. In the mean time, I would like to share some wonderful fantasy artwork I've come across this year. :)

MtG: Gift of Orzhova by algenpfleger
The Morrigan by alnour Into the Light by PaperDreamerArt
The Journal by CassiopeiaArt The Traveler by StarsColdNight
:bigthumb356060195: :bigthumb349552195:
Dragon Soul by RavenMorgoth


Journal Entry: Fri Jan 25, 2013, 9:59 PM

:wave: I hope your year is off to a good start! I apologize for the lack of updates/artwork/chapters lately. This semester has me busier than ever and going in every day to work on experiments. I am enjoying it, but I need to manage what free time I do have better so that I can still get art and writing done. :)

In other news, I invite those of you who are fans of Bioware's Dragon Age to check out the new Dragon Age supergroup! :la:
DA Men: The Old Guard Collection by ekocentric

I enjoy searching dA for great artwork for the groups I admin. Good for when I am too tired to do anything productive, but perhaps a bit addicting besides. :blush:

And now to close with a feature of some of the beautiful artwork done for Lyrium and Ashes because I miss Kaiden and Fenris and need to continue their story soon. :heart:

Commision : Kaiden x Fenris by Blackbehemot Kaiden Hawke by SirWendigo
Kaiden Hawke and Fenris Gift by Dawnisha Reunion by Danmaro Lyrium and Ashes by olivegbg DA2:Kaiden Hawke and Fenris by Owlet-in-chest Quiet Reprieve by shutterbones Goodnight love by Danmaro
Lyrium and Ashes Contest Submission by elfkin
DAII - Commission by ErinM31 by Nazgullow Kaiden Hawke, Lyrium and Ashes - Destiny by Savvid
Alone I Break by RiHouston

skin made by :iconyuhime:

Paying It Forward

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 4, 2013, 5:14 PM
The first five people to comment on this status will receive from me, sometime in the next calendar year, a gift, but it will be a surprise! There will likely be no warning and it will happen whenever the mood strikes me.
The catch is obviously that those people have to do the same, the whole paying it forward thing - so feel free to do so!

The gift will be an artwork sent in high resolution, most likely a photomanipulation. If there is a particular theme, subject, whatever, that you would like to see, feel free to include that in your comment, but I make no guarantees. I shall do my best.

Have fun!

*The idea for this journal was taken from the talented TitusLunter

Happy Holidays and Merry Critmas!

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 12:51 AM

No, that's not a typo! ;) There's a fun challenge to give 12 critiques in the next 12 days (well, 11 now). They can be throughout the week, all at once, etc., doesn't matter! The only stipulation is that 4 of the critiques must be literature pieces.
The Challenge --> Critmas is here! (Last Day!):new: Today is the LAST DAY for you to get your 12 critiques in! Make sure you leave a comment in this journal linking all your pieces. There's plenty of prizes up for grabs :) Remember you have until  11:59 PM pst TODAY to complete your critiques!
:holly: On the first day of Critmas, a deviant gave to me. :holly:
Back by popular demand, I bring you...
The 12 days of CRITMAS challenge!
Now most of you are relaxing and chilling out on your Christmas vacations; some of you have time off work/school and will be staying at home in the warm over the next week or so. So why don't we make use of that hermit time and do something productive? Get your onesie on, warm up a mince pie, pour yourself a Baileys and let’s get comfortable around our computers!
The Challenge

Want tips on critiquing? --> FF-02: Critique Theory + TechniqueCritiquing Systems
Here are a few techniques + approaches to improve
the quality and helpfulness of your critiques!
Critiquing could almost be an art form in and of itself! It's complex, but needs to be accessible. It can be approached from many different perspectives; there are no right answers. In essence, critique is like collaborative problem solving!
You as critic work with an artist to identify a problem (maybe one that they themselves are unaware of), then you work together to find a solution to it. They communicate through their existing body of work, and the technique they've developed or concept they've expressed. You communicate through your observations, impressions, and suggestions!This guide is designed to give you some new ideas about how you might approach your critiques from a different angle! It contains questions for you to ask, as well as tec

Have something you want critiqued? Just comment with a link and I shall do my best to get to it this week! :love:
(Not a premium member? Not to worry! Critiques can be given in comments just as easily!)

I'm going to take this opportunity to feature a few of my favorite literature works on dA. I really should find more, but it is so ridiculously late that I should say it is ridiculously early! :P


End-of-Semester and Dark Art Feature

Wed Dec 19, 2012, 9:22 PM

Finished with the semester and time for a new journal entry! ;) First, a big welcome and thank you to all my new watchers! :wow: The Realm-of-Fantasy article actually posted while I was out-of-town, so it was a wonderful surprise to come back to! :love: And a huge thank you to ALL my watchers for your support and feedback.

I am determined to get caught up on my art and writing this month! :shakefist: I have ideas that I've waited too long to do...

But for now, a dark art feature because I've come across many lovely works while recruiting for DarkArt-Challenges =D
Check out the current challenge, The Collection: Lots of fun! :la:

Insidious by J-u-d-a-s Nebula by Kaos-Nest ...From my Abyss by SuiDey Take my darkest fears and play them like a lullaby by dangerous-glow :thumb341000950: Light and Dark by Schiszophrenia .: A c h e r o n t i A :. by J-u-d-a-s :thumb287327622: Lucid dreams by Dream-traveler never-ending list by Sythgara

Another Awesomeness Feature

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 17, 2012, 9:12 PM
I shall be updating several chapters of Lyrium and Ashes tomorrow Monday! There are some improvements in the flow of the story and additional exposition to set the scene and characters for readers who have not played Dragon Age. Those of you following the story won't be missing anything except, you may wish to have another look at the first chapter when I post it tomorrow. You might find some hints of things to come as well as more of what happened "that night"
*It also includes the first... intimate scene I have written =D

And now to share some of my recent faves! :dance:
Kaiden Hawke by SirWendigo Sorceress Imagine FX Cover by MartaNael :thumb336983080:
Blooming in Red by DarkDevil16 original: Underwater love by MathiaArkoniel Arowana of Love by hiliuyun
Enchanted forest by Korolevatumana Struggle by Oer-Wout MARVELLOUS  JOURNEY by GBrush
Attrition by 3mmI our void by raqmo Dream Factory by senyphine
The happiest day in her life by megan7 November Nightfall by rockgem NICE DAY FOR A WALK.. by chryssalis

Help a fellow artist and get lovely art

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 9, 2012, 9:01 PM
If you'd like lovely artwork at a reasonable price, please check out shutterbones'  journal and commission details on Tumblr:…

She has been having a rough year and is now going through an emergency. :( I have commissioned her before (and will again now) and can vouch for her work. :heart:

:thumb289597656: Quiet Reprieve by shutterbones :thumb289854040: :thumb244319575: Put the Gun in My Mouth by shutterbones Burn by shutterbones :thumb293812008: Gentle Hurt by shutterbones Burning Lovers by shutterbones

Purple CSS

Images & Code by CrimsonReach

something different

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 3, 2012, 10:47 PM
Do any of you have aquariums? How about marine aquariums? Once you get them established, they really aren't that difficult to maintain (barring unfortunate accidents such as untimely filter failure :tears:) Anyway, I got a long-spined black sea urchin the other day. They are really interesting and elegant creatures. :) Here are some pics I found on dA of the species:
Longspined Sea Urchin by MetteGregersen :thumb325043852: Denver Aquarium Sea Urchin 38 by Falln-Stock

And now for a feature of a variety of these amazing creatures :heart:
Beauty like an Urchin by Detective-Ophelia VANA by X5-442 Common Sea Urchin by w00zle Sea Urchin by meeldiv spiky urchin by blueandyellowguitar Urchin by bozonio The lone Urchin by BlackGryph0n Climbing Urchin by ebonyshadow Sea Urchin Gardens by meeks105 Sea Urchin by teigh Denver Zoo 129 Sea Urchin by Falln-Stock Spiny Beauty by mndstrm Sea Urchin by YBsilon-Stock Safety. by Courtiepona :thumb180424704: Sea Urchin by AnthonyWest Study This by hatefueled

I hope that you enjoyed the photos! =D Now back to your regular scheduled programing...
wait, I have a schedule? :sprint:

Phenominal Photomanipulations

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 10, 2012, 3:22 PM
Eternal Flame by igreeny Dream Believer by ForestGirl  Legend by Phatpuppyart-Studios Alexiel and Luzifer by Celairen Forty Winters by patriciabrennan Daybreak by patriciabrennan Feeding time by megan7 Stolen Moments by DesignbyKatt The Shell Maiden by Foxfires Gold of the depths 2012 by ilona-veresk F.K. Guardians of magic lake 2012 by ilona-veresk Water Spider by B-O-K-E Water Maiden Magic by pranile To turnament by Vinyariel Tender hands by ElenaDudina Riverside by gemlovesyou Break Away by Richirajd Branwen by RottenRagamuffin Autumn Portal by Whendell :thumb202516717: Free by Selunia AS OLD AS YOUR FEARS... by chryssalis As The Crow Flies by simoneheld Nos Morituri by erlendmork Immortal Souls by pranile :thumb287327622: Lucid dreams by Dream-traveler My life by aninur Secret moment by aninur Waiting in Neverland by AlexandriaDior Rises to the Surface by Phatpuppyart-Studios


Journal Entry: Sun Sep 30, 2012, 6:22 PM
More often than not, finishing a piece does not feel like accomplishment to me, but rather like I have finally given up on getting it right. :(
Maybe that is why I take so bloody long to finish anything? :confused:
I should probably do more work directly from reference before I will be able to really portray what I see in my mind... Or perhaps just drawing anything regularly... What do you think are most important for improvement?

Okay, enough rambling, now for some art! :heart:

their_last_clan_finished by Brilcrist Fires of Heaven by DSillustration Breath of Life by brandrificus 270912 by lungburger A moment before... by zakharova Strong Enough by siphofoto gas by photographoc nude in the castle by ChrissieRed Dryad by aditya777 :thumb262129341: Sci-Fi Dream by San-T My life by aninur

Ridiculously Awesome

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 23, 2012, 9:00 PM
So I have been a lazy bum this weekend. So many plans, so little done... I think I need to work on time management, even on my weekends... :dead:

But since I have spent waaay too much time on dA this weekend, allow me to share with you some ridiculously awesome art! =D

Feeding time by megan7 Stolen Moments by DesignbyKatt TheQuiet by melannc Water Spider by B-O-K-E Has the fortuitous wave by Sesca Everything dies by invisiblemartyr :thumb324721100: Nos Morituri by erlendmork :thumb323094229: :thumb143834276: Get Burn to Ashes by telthona Elesh by IgorKieryluk Magdalena by 88grzes Magic Grass by daRoz

Update and Features

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 16, 2012, 9:55 PM
Getting settled in and finally back into writing. :heart: I need to get back to art again too, I have the itch and I think I owe quite a few pieces now, yes? Oh yes... :faint: But I have no complaints - so far everyone has requested something I shall enjoy drawing/photomanipping! =D

Many thanks to everyone for their patience! :forgiveme:

For now, some features, and a song that fits both how I feel tonight and suits Kaiden and Fenris well too. :heart:…

Reunion by Danmaro Aragorn by Esteljf The Healing by 3feathers Breathe by Saimain All the others, gone by Gold-Seven BL -  Not alone by ThoseWeirdThings lassitude. by alexzappa Sparrow. by rockgem

  • Mood: Joy
Congratulations to Danmaro and Owlet-in-chest for tying for first place in the poll! :clap: :clap: :clap:

Thus there are THREE grand prize winners, featured here with some of my favorite pieces by the artists:

DA2:Kaiden Hawke and Fenris by Owlet-in-chest
I love the feeling depicted here, the love between them, really beautiful! :heart:
ME3_Jack by Owlet-in-chestSerenity by Owlet-in-chestDifficult choice... by Owlet-in-chest

Lyrium and Ashes by Danmaro
Wow, ten entries in one! Very creative and I especially love the picture of Kaiden enjoying the snow! :aww:
Love me by DanmaroInterruption by DanmaroMarc by Danmaro

Lyrium and Ashes Contest Submission by elfkin
Beautiful work and perfectly captures my vision of this scene! :love:
Spirit of Battle: The Last High King by elfkinCommission comic page 1 by elfkinAdvent Fortune Cover by elfkin

Two other pieces I think deserve special mention and shall receive a prize upgrade:

Kaiden Hawke, Lyrium and Ashes - Destiny by Savvid
If I were offering a prize for best capture of Kaiden's features, it would go to you, Savvid! Thank you for the wonderful entry!

Lyrium and Ashes by olivegbg
I love the moody lighting and olivegbg's portrayal of this scene as it really captures the feel I was going for!

Thank you to everyone for the wonderful entries!!! :blowkiss: